feeling like i dont want to die, my short story

It happened this summer....After a great month staying in Italy....I went to Canada...To study in one language school..in the downtown...It happened that i was one of the youngest student there....i was 15....But everyone thought that iwas much older..I cant forget their faces after hearing that number "15" ..once even my teacher said "I knew that u r young, but I thought u was like 18-20"....I haven't understood yet was it god or bad....Once we've been to the ROM museum...and I met him....the next day we went to the wonderland with friends...I’ve spent almost all that day talking smiling laughing with for and at him...oh I’ve forgot to say...in there school there were just2 eastern European. me and other girl from Slovenia...she was also 15...but she was a kind of slut...yeeh...and it took me some time to shout that I’m not one of that king of girlz(there was a thought that all Ua girls are bitches...majority were Latin American and oriental...His name is Ale he was 24 from Caracas...I'm almost sure that he was interested in me...he was a king of bodybuilder...and with quite dark skin colour and I liked it...so 2 weeks passed like just normal days...but that we went(11 of us all Lat Americans(mostly Venezuela and some from Colombia panama) and one Brazilian)and me...to French Canada(Québec Montréal etc)...for 2 days...one firs night nothing happed but on second...everyone of us was not that sober...but our mind was clear...at firs one boy(one of the most beautiful I’ve seen in my life )kissed me.. most romantic kiss ever...I didn’t permit to do more, no one has seen that for sure...but the only thing I wanted was Ale..We were hugging smiling to each other..and than they all gone to nightclub(I was too young to go the min age is 19 and I did wanted to do fake ID)...at night he knocked but I was slipping and my roommate opened the door...she thought that he had left smth in the room before..She was right he left there me..At firs I thought that it was just a dream...than I thought that it was other boy...but then i felt that it was just here...i was kissing him but it wasn't only a kiss...i can't explain...but than i said that i want to sleep and driven out of the room..but I wanted to stay with him….
Next morning our relations were much wormer but nothing very special...i wanted to expess my feelings but....i made it on my last day i wrote an email///i think I was too shy...there were no answear...i made it severaltmes but no answear...i'm talking to him nowedays from time to time when we are both online on msn...but not the way i wanted..i want to hear some answear I don’t care posotove or negative...now I reaaly care only about him. even if I haven’t seen him for all this long almost 6 month for now...I’m cold for every other man...even when I’m kissing the only thing I think about is him. My thoughts dedicated only for him...I can’t do nothing...and this feeling increase day by day...oh tears again on my eyes...and i just wanted to share my thaughts cuz i cant wait no more..no one understands me complitely..the only person ho can now staying to far from me...on the other continent...so just wanted to share my thoughts...this is it…and to here what ppl are thinking about it…thanx

niasilil

Thats why I would never go to the camp in another country.

B) Very understandable and emotional story. I like it, because same like one peace in my heart.

I clearly understand u. The story is very touching. But I hope everything will be alright. Coz life is going on, and u should think about ur future, not the past. ))

It wasn't a camp...It was a school...I was on my own...It is very different from camp....there r lot of response...hehe
Life is going on...But the Feelings...He was great....i was happy...but you know i ca love..can have this pure feeling...

HEY, GUYS. READ THE STORY. IT'S VERY NICE AND EMOTINOAL. TO THE FIRST LIST

F**k me I'm Famous, u will forget him, i'm sure.

It's not main. It's just beauteful story.

Yes, for u it's onlu a beatiful story, but for her it is a tears and heartache

yeah Time cures...but it never wait's...

u shouldn't forget it!

Bytheway...I know i will forgot him...but when?!it has already been a long time....

hm...you know it's been 15 month since I've seen him for the last time...I've meet many new ppl..But he is still in my heart...I Know I still love him toooo much..hm...sounds really funny..hehe..but I can do nothing with myself...

Ok, dear.. I'm afraid i need some explanation. )) U think only about HIM? U are "cold for every other man"? So, why the hack u are kissing someone ELSE??? Or "kissing" for u is some process equial to breathing? No feelings involved, huh? ))) U're amusing me! This story made my day...
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Yeah... It's obvious, isn't it? ))) I just hope noone gonna love me AS MUCH!!! Kissing with the other guy meanwhile. Oh goodness... )))

no i meant...I was kissing that other guy that day...but before...you know sometimes you can;t do nothing with it..
for me a kiss mean very much...you remember pretty women movie...what she was saying about that...for me it's same situation=)

Blablabla. Sorry, author, but your story is really boring. I only looked throught it and, you know, this story about a kiss didn't snagged me. Sorry, guy.